The Grand End

To every beginning there's an end. But it would not be the ultimate end for the closing of one door opens many others to countless opportunities. Nothing lasts forever in this world. Love itself is a constant victim to the claws of loss. The only thing constant in this world is change. Many things occur in our lives which teach us not to hold on to a particular object,person or feeling for long because sooner or later it disappears. Either sooner or later.



But how do you let go of someone whom you really love? There would exist a bond between you and that other person which would in time grow so strong that it is almost impossible to break. Almost. Love is not mere words and feelings but love is also all about sacrifices,pain and loss. Love causes a person to do irrational things. Which would be better? To know love and to have lost it than to never have loved before and wonder what it would be like? At times I sit and ponder on the times when I had once loved. I had been happy to have known some of them but most I have regretted crossing paths with them. It is so hard to purge my soul and mind of all the sweet words embedded in my heart which they have said. These memories have slowly crystalized into something harder than diamond and cannot be dislodged so easily. They are like malignant cancerous tumors which have grown fat on the remembering. These memories linger at the old haunts,the old songs listened together and when certain activites are performed which was once done with them. These places or actions trigger past memories and old wounds are reopened. These wounds would never completely heal but would leave a scar.

Time is no remedy for a broken heart but it merely dulls the pain by a fraction. New found love can never fully erase the consequences of past love. I have learned to harden my heart to any romantic feelings and resist the temptation to to care for one person too much. But unfortunately this time I have let my guard down. The one I loved betrayed me and deceived me. And the worse thing is.. I actually saw it coming... Would this end herald a new beginning for me..?