To see the world in a grain of sand,
And Heaven in a wildflower,
To hold infinty in your palm,
and eternity in a hour
~William Blake
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Turn back time?
If you had one chance to go back in time and correct one mistake in your life, what mistake would you correct? Well,that's pretty personal right? Each one of us have made some mistakes of which we later regret committing. I have made some very silly but very costly mistakes in my past,which I don't think I'm gonna tell you coz its private. *laughs* But there are some mistakes which I don't regret making for if I hadn't made that particular mistake I wouldn't have learned that particularly valuable lesson from it. What I am today is the result of circumstaces that I have gone through. From every mistake and every hurdle I have faced I learned to solve it and move on to the next phase. Some circunstances are difficult to overcome and may take more time than others. But in time a valuable lesson will be obtained when the hurdle has been overcomed.
Sometimes I view myself as not good enough. I try to make myself better. Wear odd clothes. get a new piercing.(which I did for fun. hahaha!!) Try to act differently. But then I realized that putting on this mask was very difficult cos it did not fit my face and it wasn't who I truly am. I stopped to think. I'm not good enpough? But,not good enough for who? My friends? My family? The society around me? I lie on my bed and pondered about this for quite a while. I felt so stupid. How can I force myself to be something that I'm not just so that people can accept me? Sigh... I am who I am,and that you cannot change. I am,WE are all unique in our own special ways. Sure some people can do certain things that we can't do,but we ourselves have talents and gifts that they may not have,and that sets us apart from each other. The Creator did not intend all human beings to be the same. He created us and given us a variety of gifts for which we use to glorify Him and also to help others. Gifts are meant to be shared and not hoarded and buried somewhere. *laughs* its 2:20 a.m. now. And I'm still wide awake. My eyes are red cos I've been wearing my contacts since 9:30 a.m. My poor eyes. I'll rest up soon. I was havin fever earlier. Goodness knows why. I ate lotsa sushi today. and OMYGOD!! THE SALMON CROQUETTE!!! I LEFT IT IN MY BAG!! I'm so forgetful.. *slaps forehead* I hope it didn't decide to die in my bag.. Owell. Bugger it. I'll have it for breakfast tomoro then. Yum,yum. Actually,I haven't even eaten dinner yet. I was too sick to eat. But now I'm feeling better!! Whoo-hoo!! I hope I don't get to hyper. Otherwise I won't be able to sleep. *laughs*
Ah well,life goes on despite the troubles and toils that we have to face. My sense of humor is the only thing keeping me sane in this mad world. Take life one step at a time!! Laugh and learn to relax.. Otherwise you'd be laughing permanently in a funny farm.Wouldn't want that to happen do we? Hat hat hat. Hahaha! 1I got that from Soul Music. Just finished reading it. Now I have to re-read Translations. and I have to practice my maths.. Darn... So little time and so many things to do!!
Newflash.
CHOICE,CHOICE,CHOICE.
ALL humans are given a CHOICE.
This is another topic I'll write about when I'm NOT so angry.
Something's come up.
See you all later...
Choice....
Sheesh.....
If you had one chance to go back in time and correct one mistake in your life, what mistake would you correct? Well,that's pretty personal right? Each one of us have made some mistakes of which we later regret committing. I have made some very silly but very costly mistakes in my past,which I don't think I'm gonna tell you coz its private. *laughs* But there are some mistakes which I don't regret making for if I hadn't made that particular mistake I wouldn't have learned that particularly valuable lesson from it. What I am today is the result of circumstaces that I have gone through. From every mistake and every hurdle I have faced I learned to solve it and move on to the next phase. Some circunstances are difficult to overcome and may take more time than others. But in time a valuable lesson will be obtained when the hurdle has been overcomed.
Sometimes I view myself as not good enough. I try to make myself better. Wear odd clothes. get a new piercing.(which I did for fun. hahaha!!) Try to act differently. But then I realized that putting on this mask was very difficult cos it did not fit my face and it wasn't who I truly am. I stopped to think. I'm not good enpough? But,not good enough for who? My friends? My family? The society around me? I lie on my bed and pondered about this for quite a while. I felt so stupid. How can I force myself to be something that I'm not just so that people can accept me? Sigh... I am who I am,and that you cannot change. I am,WE are all unique in our own special ways. Sure some people can do certain things that we can't do,but we ourselves have talents and gifts that they may not have,and that sets us apart from each other. The Creator did not intend all human beings to be the same. He created us and given us a variety of gifts for which we use to glorify Him and also to help others. Gifts are meant to be shared and not hoarded and buried somewhere. *laughs* its 2:20 a.m. now. And I'm still wide awake. My eyes are red cos I've been wearing my contacts since 9:30 a.m. My poor eyes. I'll rest up soon. I was havin fever earlier. Goodness knows why. I ate lotsa sushi today. and OMYGOD!! THE SALMON CROQUETTE!!! I LEFT IT IN MY BAG!! I'm so forgetful.. *slaps forehead* I hope it didn't decide to die in my bag.. Owell. Bugger it. I'll have it for breakfast tomoro then. Yum,yum. Actually,I haven't even eaten dinner yet. I was too sick to eat. But now I'm feeling better!! Whoo-hoo!! I hope I don't get to hyper. Otherwise I won't be able to sleep. *laughs*
Ah well,life goes on despite the troubles and toils that we have to face. My sense of humor is the only thing keeping me sane in this mad world. Take life one step at a time!! Laugh and learn to relax.. Otherwise you'd be laughing permanently in a funny farm.Wouldn't want that to happen do we? Hat hat hat. Hahaha! 1I got that from Soul Music. Just finished reading it. Now I have to re-read Translations. and I have to practice my maths.. Darn... So little time and so many things to do!!
Newflash.
CHOICE,CHOICE,CHOICE.
ALL humans are given a CHOICE.
This is another topic I'll write about when I'm NOT so angry.
Something's come up.
See you all later...
Choice....
Sheesh.....
"I wish I had NEVER met that person!!" These words had escaped my lips just a few moments ago. But I did have the choice whether or not I wanted to meet that person. I chose the latter. Ah well. Earthly happiness is always temporal. It never lasts long anyway. We enjoy it while it lasts.
Freedom of choice. Choice. A gift so graciously bestowed upon us by the Creator. A gift that we all so often abuse. Some choices we make reflect deeply on our character. What we do today affects us and the people around us though we may not realize that. Our past affects our present and our present affects our future but who knows what the future holds for us? I doubt we can really know unless we have that miraulous gift of foresight. Otherwise known as premonitions or vision. We have to be careful with the choices that we make and be wise with our words. *tear rolls down cheek* I wish I hadn't made certain choices which I had so foolishly and rashly made. But... They were suppose to teach me a lesson. Yet I seem to keep repeating the same mistakes. And I ALWAYS fall into the same hole. Whe will I ever learn right? *laughs weakly*
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You will learn to beginto trust the voice within.
Sounds familiar? Its the chorus from The Voice Within by Christina Aguilera. The voice within. Doesn't that symbolize our heart? Can we really trust what our heart tell us? our heart can be fooled. Mine has been fooled many times before. And I'm still recovering from past hurts. The problem is that I keep facing similar situations which opens up the old wounds. Sigh... I just wish that I could forsee a mistake before it happens. But everyone knows that trials make an individual stronger. Gold has to go through fire to rid it of its impurities. I guess every human being must go through the fire of life so that they may become stronger than their present state.
*tear rolls down cheek* I cannot just give up on my feelings totally. I've gotta be strong. There's no mountain too high to climb and no river too wide to be crossed. There is no trial that is too hard to be overcomed....
Freedom of choice. Choice. A gift so graciously bestowed upon us by the Creator. A gift that we all so often abuse. Some choices we make reflect deeply on our character. What we do today affects us and the people around us though we may not realize that. Our past affects our present and our present affects our future but who knows what the future holds for us? I doubt we can really know unless we have that miraulous gift of foresight. Otherwise known as premonitions or vision. We have to be careful with the choices that we make and be wise with our words. *tear rolls down cheek* I wish I hadn't made certain choices which I had so foolishly and rashly made. But... They were suppose to teach me a lesson. Yet I seem to keep repeating the same mistakes. And I ALWAYS fall into the same hole. Whe will I ever learn right? *laughs weakly*
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You will learn to beginto trust the voice within.
Sounds familiar? Its the chorus from The Voice Within by Christina Aguilera. The voice within. Doesn't that symbolize our heart? Can we really trust what our heart tell us? our heart can be fooled. Mine has been fooled many times before. And I'm still recovering from past hurts. The problem is that I keep facing similar situations which opens up the old wounds. Sigh... I just wish that I could forsee a mistake before it happens. But everyone knows that trials make an individual stronger. Gold has to go through fire to rid it of its impurities. I guess every human being must go through the fire of life so that they may become stronger than their present state.
*tear rolls down cheek* I cannot just give up on my feelings totally. I've gotta be strong. There's no mountain too high to climb and no river too wide to be crossed. There is no trial that is too hard to be overcomed....
Celebration of Life
Ah,Life! Sweet life that flows from within me!
Bubble forth from deep within to without
Fill not only myself but others around me
Oh,I can't contain but now I must shout!!
Laughter,sweet laughter that's mingled with joy!!
Hold fast thee now to this strong heart of mine
And overflow with gladness this human boy!!
Peace with joy now together intertwine
With thy strength chase thee away the shadows
Of hurt and doubt that long had hounded me
Free,so free like a sheep in the meadows,
A bright shining sun has now come greet me.
The music of the singing birds bear note
of carefree lives they have which I too seek,
Yet live I a life which I must now dote
A life which I had turned to strong from weak.
Bear ye well in all that thou seek to do.
Above all,to thine own self be true.
Ah,Life! Sweet life that flows from within me!
Bubble forth from deep within to without
Fill not only myself but others around me
Oh,I can't contain but now I must shout!!
Laughter,sweet laughter that's mingled with joy!!
Hold fast thee now to this strong heart of mine
And overflow with gladness this human boy!!
Peace with joy now together intertwine
With thy strength chase thee away the shadows
Of hurt and doubt that long had hounded me
Free,so free like a sheep in the meadows,
A bright shining sun has now come greet me.
The music of the singing birds bear note
of carefree lives they have which I too seek,
Yet live I a life which I must now dote
A life which I had turned to strong from weak.
Bear ye well in all that thou seek to do.
Above all,to thine own self be true.
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