"I wish I had NEVER met that person!!" These words had escaped my lips just a few moments ago. But I did have the choice whether or not I wanted to meet that person. I chose the latter. Ah well. Earthly happiness is always temporal. It never lasts long anyway. We enjoy it while it lasts.

Freedom of choice. Choice. A gift so graciously bestowed upon us by the Creator. A gift that we all so often abuse. Some choices we make reflect deeply on our character. What we do today affects us and the people around us though we may not realize that. Our past affects our present and our present affects our future but who knows what the future holds for us? I doubt we can really know unless we have that miraulous gift of foresight. Otherwise known as premonitions or vision. We have to be careful with the choices that we make and be wise with our words. *tear rolls down cheek* I wish I hadn't made certain choices which I had so foolishly and rashly made. But... They were suppose to teach me a lesson. Yet I seem to keep repeating the same mistakes. And I ALWAYS fall into the same hole. Whe will I ever learn right? *laughs weakly*

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You will learn to beginto trust the voice within.

Sounds familiar? Its the chorus from The Voice Within by Christina Aguilera. The voice within. Doesn't that symbolize our heart? Can we really trust what our heart tell us? our heart can be fooled. Mine has been fooled many times before. And I'm still recovering from past hurts. The problem is that I keep facing similar situations which opens up the old wounds. Sigh... I just wish that I could forsee a mistake before it happens. But everyone knows that trials make an individual stronger. Gold has to go through fire to rid it of its impurities. I guess every human being must go through the fire of life so that they may become stronger than their present state.

*tear rolls down cheek* I cannot just give up on my feelings totally. I've gotta be strong. There's no mountain too high to climb and no river too wide to be crossed. There is no trial that is too hard to be overcomed....